so as of late, i've been taking photographs of the people i am closest with. i'm blessed with beautiful people as friends, both inside and out.
i'm kind of turning it into a series, perhaps i'll capture everyone i love. it would be quite a feat. and that makes me happy.

i suppose i'm trying to capture them as they perpetually seem to me. rachel, an extremely intelligent, soft spoken girl. chris, kind of goofy and perpetually overintellectual. i love each facet of these people...

more recent photographs in the series:

rachel
caitlin
allie
chris
kathleen
ronnie


it would be great if you could check some out and give some feedback. there is always room for improvement. thanks

lovelise.

SO.

those 1,500 deviant messages were really...intimidating to say the least.

i left and lived my life and now i'm back possibly, still deciding.


ALL MESSAGES were deleted. all.

sorry if i dont comment on your recent work.
sorry if i dont comment on your journal.
etc.

i also took off 2819347019287341092875012938470129387409 123874(arbitrary numbers here) people off my devwatch list. well theyre still there. they just dont show up in my messages.

sorry guys. its a new beginning and most of you i dont remember

not to be completely insensitive or anything.

so....lets see if this gets me arting. worth a try.

i was thinking about time, today, as it was my brothers 18th birthday. and i was thinking of what would make my life worthwhile, what would make it a success.
all of the time we get pressured with these strange and unrealistic and sometimes ridiculous ideas of success...that we need to be successful, that we should be successful quickly, that we should make lots of money, that we should try and live forever, get a fixed rate mortgage, get married, never be tied down, have a smaller waist, bigger breasts, bigger dick, perfect skin, no wrinkles, smoke cubans wait till marriage have fun get straight As get into an ivy league white teeth enjoy youth work from home drive a sports car preserve the environment be economical shop at all the finest stores eat healthfully consume big macs with no buns be a well rounded individual be angsty because its cool fight the media conform to the media protect our rights kill for our rights hand over our rights be pleasant all the time improve libido
be success
you should be pure success and if you arent
fix yourself

well you know what

i guarantee you that if you see someone from across a busy street or a supermarket aisle
and you mouth/motion the skinnamarink-y-dinky-dink,-skinnamarink- y-do,-i,-love,-you song, (you know the one) they'll smile

and thats all i have to say about my day

Okay. The situation is as follows....
I was recommended for a 10 day backpacking of Argentina and Brazil.
Trouble is, its $3000, I'm flat broke, parents wont let me get a job, and I need the money by december. FUN

so now i have a once in a lifetime experience ticking away.
Please please PLEASE buy a Send Elise to Brazil tee shirt or something, at

SendElise.tk

Every bit helps and hopefully curiosity will be lovely and fuel this.

Be cool. Be helpful? I love you?
I'd buy one myself if I had the money.

Much love. & thanks for listening to the nothing...hah

lovelise

so i'm 15, day has come; i dont feel any different. wellwishers seem much friendlier

makes me nervous how i'm getting older with the passing of time. i want to tell it to wait...

think of how it would be if we grew younger as life went on. would we lose wisdom? would we fear the time when we couldnt understand life and death? where would we go? would we still gain wisdom?

i need to stop being so determined to "conquer the world", as others put it, and enjoy being my age. because i am my age. cant help that;
we grow up so fast these days